Fresh Start
It’s been a while since I updated. But…well, now just seems like an appropriate time to do this. Where should I start?
Well the reason why I haven’t updated in so long was because I’ve just been so caught up with life. Before, the majority of the updates to this blog was to help me cope with the loss of Amy but around April/May I felt like I had moved on (proven wrong to me later…as in this past week) and I just didn’t have anything to write anymore and so I didn’t.
That didn’t mean nothing happened to me though, quite the contrary. I barely finished up a tumultuous school year and ended up on STD, my future at UCLA hanging from an uncertain and precarious wire for the majority of the summer. Luckily the situation resolved itself and I was given another chance, a final chance this Fall to get everything together.
So that was that. And then there was this week. Oh god, so much shit happened to me this week that it could hardly count as fair. The loss of my main set of car keys, the destruction of my PS3 and the ensuing $150 dollar cost to get it fixed, relapse of emotions and events concerning the ex, drama (might be onesided) with one of my roommates, catching the flu…it was all bad. But here I am. Still alive and still in one piece at the end of the surge, sitting alone in this somewhat empty…well emptier than it has been this past year…apartment. Ramsey has gone to Korea, Gene has moved out to live with his new roommates, Randy has moved back home, and no girls to call over and keep me company 
So what am I doing? Well first I stood in the living room surveying the clutter of boxes, reminiscing about what it looked like over the school year, thinking about the times we had in the apartment when we were all still together, and mostly disbelieving at how an entire year has passed by already. If so much can happen in this past year, it makes me a little excited to think of what might happen the upcoming year. I’m going to be moving to a new apartment, living with new roommates, and with the exception of Gene, I have no more friends still at UCLA. For better or worse, it’s a complete fresh start with little to no ties to my old life.
And with that, I’m going to sit here a lil more, maybe surf the web and play some games as I listen to “Alone” from the Persona 4 soundtrack playing softly in the background. It’s pretty fitting, being the track that plays when the protagonist is at home at the end of the game and Nanako and Dojima aren’t there anymore. At the beginning of 2009 when I listened to this song playing Persona 4 it literally made me feel alone. It reminded me of the emptiness caused by the nullification of one of the biggest relationships in my life at the time. But now as I listen to this piece of music, I don’t really feel sad. It feels more like a nice relaxing calm before the storm of awesomeness that’s going to be my new life. 
